You wake up, neck stiff from sleeping against the car door, the sun is blindingly bright. You squint over at Jimmy, who hasn’t stopped driving all night, holding your hand over your eyes to block out the sun. He looks rough, to say the least. His clothes that were crisp when you first met him are crinkled, he has stubble on his chin and upper lip, and he looks dead tired. You feel bad for falling asleep when he’s had to stay awake to keep both of you safe.
He grins at you, his own sleepiness melting away briefly. “Good morning.”
You push yourself up in your seat, rubbing your eye. “Morning...Where are we?”
“Almost at the car, we are switching. We’ll have to grab the things in the trunk of my car quickly and then it’s about a half a day drive to the safehouse,” he says, pulling on sunglasses as he follows the curve in the road, so the sun is directly in both of you faces.
“You can’t drive that long,” you say.
“We can’t stop. I’ll be okay,” he says, shrugging.
“I can drive,” you say. “And I promise I’ll wake you up if anyone suspicious shows up.”
He looks over at you, then back at the road, silent for a while. “That might be a good idea.”
You smile and sit back in your seat. At least there was something you could do to help.
Jimmy points at a truck stop. “The car is there; we have five minutes. You grab everything out of the back seat, and I’ll get the things out of the trunk. If you must use the bathroom, run in quick, then we must go.”
You nod, looking in the direction he’s pointing. Then you swivel your head around to look at the things in the back. A few bags, the blanket, and his hat. Easy. It’s not long before he finds the car. The two of you rush everything into the back seat of the new car, race to the bathrooms, then get in the car, you in the driver’s seat. After quickly adjusting the mirrors, you pull out of the truck stop. Jimmy has instructed you to drive straight until you get to a crossroads where the road straight across from you is gravel, then wake him if he’s sleeping. Then, Jimmy leans his chair back and uses his jacket like a blanket. You turn the radio on low and he’s lulled to sleep before the first song ends.
You drive for so long you aren’t sure you’re still in the same state, but finally you come across the crossroads he was talking about. “Hey, we’re here,” you say, touching his arm.
He jumps at the touch, then apologies as he props the seat back up. He directs you through so many lefts and rights that even if you were crazy enough, you try to run away from him. You’d never find your way back to the road you came from. Finally, after one last left turn, you pull into the driveway of a little farmhouse. The farm itself is no longer there, but the house looks like it was pulled from time, perfectly preserved.
You turn off the car and push your door open, admiring the little one-family house. It’s a soft yellow with white trim. A wraparound porch and little shutters and flower-boxes full of flowers on all the windows.
You stand and stretch, your body aching from being in a car for that long. Jimmy grabs some things out of the car and walks to the door, the car keys in his hand. He unlocks the door and places the bags inside, looking around quickly to make sure the house is vacant.
“Come on in,” he says, standing at the door.
You take the bags with you, including a duffel that was very heavy. He takes the duffel from you when you get to the porch. “What do you have in there? Rocks?” you ask, rubbing the shoulder you had it slung over.
“No, not rocks,” he says and unzips it just enough to stick his hand inside. He pulls out a gun and you take a step back. “Relax… it’s not loaded.”
He hands you the gun, showing you it’s empty first. Your father never let you hold a gun even though he had lots around, so you survey it while you’ve got the chance. Jimmy must put his hand on your elbow to lead you inside. He sits you down at the table, then tells you he’ll be back. He’s just going to hide the car. You nod, putting his gun on the table. Once he’s outside, you get up and roam around the house, opening doors and closets to find this house is completely stocked for living in. There are clothes in the bedroom, food in the kitchen, soaps, shampoos, towels, shoes. You name it, it’s there. The only thing you find odd is there is only one bedroom with a bed in it, the second bedroom has been made into a panic room. It’s filled with monitors showing different angles of the property. Must be well hidden. You hadn’t seen a single camera when you were marveling at the house.
You find the one in the garage and see Jimmy get out of the car and close the garage door before making his way back inside. He was walking like he was sore, and you didn’t blame him. Your lower back and legs were still aching, and you longed for a few minutes in a hot tub.
Jimmy walks into the house and looks around for you. “Cassidy,” he calls out.
“Yeah?” you say, stepping out.
“I was just wondering where you went,” he says, sinking down in a chair and stretching his legs out.
“I found the panic room,” you say, walking towards him. “It’s cool, but that means there is only one bedroom.”
He blinks, taking a few moments to understand what you’re saying to him. Then his eyes widen. “Oh.”
He gets up and walks around the house; you follow him, only now realizing how tall he is. You also notice, now that he’s moving around without his jacket on, that despite how lean he is, he seems to have a muscular body. His arm muscles are visible under his black t-shirt and his shoulders are wide and fit.
He halts at the bedroom door, causing you to run into him. You grab his arm to steady yourself as you take a step back. He looks down at you. His expression makes you think he’s not used to having a woman near him.
“Sorry,” you say, taking your hand off his arm.
He nods, his eyes shifting away from you as color crawls up his neck. His movements seem stiffer now, like he’s out of his element. “You’re right...One bedroom...” His eyes land on the bed. “One bed...”
You look from the bed to his face and see Jimmy frowning. ‘How can he be that attractive when he frowns, you wonder as your eyes view his face?’
Pink tints his cheeks as he notices you staring at him, and he hesitantly looks over at you. “What?”
A slow smile forms on your lips as you watch him. “Nothing, I was just thinking you’re too hot to be in the mob.”
His blush deepens as he breaks eye contact, sputtering incoherent sentences. All you caught were words like manly, tough, and killer. Your smile only got bigger as this gentle hunk tried to convince you he wasn’t pretty. You secretly hoped your father’s men looked for you for a long time, so you could stay here with this adorable goof.
You hold your hands up. “Okay, I’m sorry. I was mistaken.”
Jimmy glares at you, knowing you’re teasing him. Somehow, during his rant, he moved, so he was now standing in the middle of the bedroom facing you. Your eyes glide over him, and you still can’t believe anyone working for a mob boss can be that handsome. You try not to stare at him because he seems uncomfortable with that kind of attention, but it’s very hard to stop looking at him.
“Uh ... I’m going to find something to make for dinner,” you say, breaking the small silence that fell between the two of you. “You can shower now, and I will after dinner. I’m guessing this house doesn’t have a huge hot water tank, so I’ll probably have to wait for it to heat up.”
“Okay...” he says, looking a bit shocked at your offer.
You nod at him before stepping out of the room, pausing at the door to say; “Oh, I saw some clean clothes in the closet. I don’t know what size they are, but they look like they’d fit you.”
Jimmy smiles shyly, looking down. “Thanks.”
You walk to the kitchen with a smirk plastered on your face. God, that man is so fine-looking. You knew you weren’t a girl with the purest mind, and despite your father’s rules against dating, you learned as much as you could about sex so that when you had the chance, you wouldn’t be naïve. And right now, all that things you had learned in secret, you wanted to try on Jimmy. The problem was; Jimmy was shy and kept a distance between himself and you. That was something you weren’t sure how to change.
You open the fridge and look through the contents, your mind still rolling on with its train of thought. There was no rush to get Jimmy to let you close to him, so you were going to start by making sure he had three home-cooked meals a day. Your mother, before she died, had always said food was the way to win a man’s heart. You were a wonderful cook with lots of recipes stashed in your mind. You could make a meal out of just about anything and you knew the best deserts to complement the meal.
You didn’t have time to start a desert from scratch tonight, so one of the boxed ones would have to make do. You pull out the meat and veggies you want for the meal and set them on the counter, then search for a cutting board and some pans to cook in. Once you have the veggies chopped and the meat cooking on low heat, you mix some cake mix. Unfortunately, you couldn’t find a cake pan, but there was a cupcake pan and the paper wrappers to match. The pan is large enough to fit all the mix into it in one go. You stick it in the oven and put on a timer, then you toss the veggies and some noodles into your pan. Stir-fry was the easiest meal to make quickly. You add some seasoning and let it simmer for a few minutes.
You take a step back to check the cupcakes in the oven, but bump into Jimmy. You jump in surprise; he hadn’t made a noise as he walked into the kitchen, but now that your back was against his chest you could smell his shampoo.
“That smells good,” he says, leaning over your shoulder to look at the food in the pan.
You look over your shoulder at him. “It’s almost done.”
“Already? Wow ... Anything I can do to help?” he asks. He’s pressing into you now, not in a horny way, more like if you were there in the way he would eat out of the hot pan.
“Um…” you think for a moment, hoping your stalling will keep him this close to you longer. “I guess you could look for something we can eat this out of.”
“Okay,” he says, he doesn’t move right away, but you’re still a little sad when he moves away from you.
You open the oven a bit to check on the cupcakes; they are cooking thoroughly and should be done right as you two are finished eating. You close the oven door and turn off the burner as the stir-fry is on. Jimmy places two bowls next to you and toy fill them up, leaving the leftovers in the pan for now. You each grab one and walk over to the table to eat.
Jimmy is the noisiest eater you’ve ever met. Not in a nasty way, but like every bite is the best thing he’s ever tasted. You ask him if it’s good and his mouth is too full to speak, so he just makes a happy sigh as an answer. You smile, holding back a laugh.
“I don’t think anyone has ever appreciated my food that much before,” you say, picking up the dishes when you’re both done and taking them to the sink.
“My mother can’t even cook that well,” he says, turning in his chair to look at you.
You smile at that as you take out the cupcakes just as the timer buzzes.
“What’s that?” Jimmy asks, your back is to him so he can’t see what you pull out.
You place the pan on top of the oven to cool a bit and turn the oven off. “Dessert.”
You hear him get out of his chair and walk towards you as you pull the cupcakes out of the pan. He stops behind you, not pressing against you like last time, but you can still feel his heat. “You made dessert?” he asks, sounding surprised.
You place the last one on the counter before turning to face him. “Yeah, well, I have to pay you back for keeping me safe. Wouldn’t want you running off and leaving me for dead.”
He blushes and looks away from you. You only notice now that he’s in a plain white shirt and plaid pajama bottoms. “I wouldn’t do that, and you really don’t owe me anything.”
“Yes, I do,” you say so quickly you almost cut him off. “If you hadn’t been doubtful of where you were meant to drop me off, I’d be dead, and honestly, cooking for you is the least I can do.”
He just nods. His blush has faded, but he’s not making eye contact. Your mind replays all the times he’s blushed and every time it’s when your eyes met his. Your mind is screaming.”
“Just let them cool off and I’ll put some frosting on them, okay?” you say, gesturing over your shoulders at the cupcakes.
He nods again. “Okay, I’ll be in the panic room checking the monitors and alarms, unless you need help to clean up?”
“Go ahead, I’m fine,” you say, moving away from him and searching for something to put the leftovers in.
He watches you for a second before walking over to the panic room. You find containers and put the leftovers in on, keeping the larger one out for the cupcakes. Then you take the knives, pan, and cutting board to the sink to wash them up. When you have all the dishes in the dish rack drying, you find a towel to dry your hands on and pull out the frosting kit you found earlier. You don’t make them too fancy, but use a spout on the frosting bag, so it comes out like little flowers. You do one third of them in chocolate, one third in vanilla frosting, and the last third in both, not knowing what one Jimmy would like best.
You put one of each on a plate and take it into the panic room, setting the plate down on the desk next to him before letting him know you are going to take your shower. He nods and his hand hovers over the cupcakes as he tries to decide on what one he wants to eat.
You walk out of the panic room and into the bedroom, which is right next to it, to find something to sleep in. Looking in the dresser that’s positioned against the wall across from the end of the bed, you find a long nightshirt and some underwear. You take them and walk back past the panic room to the bathroom. You don’t bother to trying to lock the old door because you don’t want to get stuck, and you know there is a zero percent chance Jimmy would walk in unless someone was going to kill you while you were showering. And in the case of someone trying to kill you, you would need to have the door unlocked to let Jimmy in to save you.
You turn on the shower, adjusting it to the right temperature before taking off the clothes you had been in for the last two days. Your body still aches from being in a car for so long, but the hot water seems to wash some of the discomfort down the drain. You wash your hair with the same shampoo Jimmy used before you can stop imagining him in the shower before you. You shake your head as you rinse the soap out. No, you don’t want to lust over him; you don’t even know if he’ll like you like that, anyway. But your imagination doesn’t stop there.
In your mind, Jimmy is soaping himself, a cloud of steam covering the naughty parts. Since you’ve never actually seen a man naked, your mind just cuts that bit out. His eyes are closed, and his head tipped back, so the water is washing his hair away from his face. His hand slides down his stomach into the cloud of steam and his expression changes slightly. His eyebrows pull together and his mouth opens slightly as his hand moves below the steam cloud.
You’ve stopped moving as your imagination takes over. Your hands are in your hair, mid rinse, your eyes have closed, so your imagination could be more vivid. Your breathing has picked up. There is a strange feeling growing in your stomach that you don’t identify but you like.
There is a knock at the door. You jump in shock, your mind snapping back to your present surroundings. “Yes…” you say.
“Eddie just called in with an update. Come to the panic room when you are done,” Jimmy says from the other side of the door.
“Okay, I’ll be out soon,” you say, hurrying to rinse the rest of the soap out of your hair. You find the razor Jimmy used and quickly use it. You rinse it out very well before putting it back and turning off the shower.
You get out, dry off quickly, pull the underwear and nightshirt on, then wrap the towel around your hair and drop your clothes in the hamper as you walk out of the bathroom. You go into the panic room and knock to get Jimmy’s attention, even though the door is open.
Jimmy looks over at you, his eyes quickly taking in your exposed legs, and light night shirt. The muscles in his jaw work as he clenches his teeth, looking away from you. He directs your attention to a map on one of the monitors. He points to a spot. “We’re here,” he says and points to another spot further southwest from the first spot. “Eddie has located your father’s boys here. They seem to have lost us, so that’s good, but we’ve been ordered to stay put until further notice.”
“So, we don’t know how long we’ll be here?” you ask, taking a step into the room.
Even though you are still quite a ways away from Jimmy, he leans away as you step into the room, and he noticeably tenses up. “No, but if I were to guess, I’d say we will be here for at least a month, unless your father’s men get close, then we’ll have to move somewhere else.”
You sigh. “Okay... What’s Mr. O’Neal planning on doing now that I’m not helping get his money back?”
“I think he’s looking for your father, but no word on his location yet,” Jimmy says, looking at the monitor.
“Will he kill me if he doesn’t pay?” you ask. You knew your father wasn’t a good man, but he was the only family you had.
Jimmy looks over at you with a sad look. “I don’t know.”
You sigh, looking down at the ground.
Jimmy gets out of the chair and walks over to you. “Come on, let’s get you to bed,” he says as he puts his arm around you and leads you to the bedroom.
When you two had dinner, the sun had just started setting, but now it was so dark the light had to be turned on to see the way to the bed. Jimmy walked you up to the bed, then pulled the blankets back and covered you. You caught his hand when he turned to go.
“Would it be wrong to ask you to stay with me just for tonight?” you ask softly.
You feel his arm tense up. “I—I…”
You let your fingers slip away from his and you pull the blanket closer. “It’s okay, you don’t have to...”
Jimmy stands there for a long while, looking down at you, his body still turned, ready to leave. He takes a deep breath, and you see his hand make a fist before he walks out of the room. You hug the blanket to your chest and shut your eyes, trying to block out the unwanted emotions for your father. You really didn’t want to be alone tonight, but you also didn’t want to pressure Jimmy into staying. Maybe he had a girlfriend, and that’s why he was trying to keep his distance.
The bed sinks down behind you, and you look over your shoulder in disbelief. Jimmy is lying down as far away from you as the bed will allow.
“Just tonight,” he says when he sees you looking at him.
You roll over; the bed is so tiny; you end up pressed right up against him, and give him a hug. “Thank you.”
He tenses when you press against him. He lies still stiffly for a moment before putting a hand on your side and gently pushing you away.
“Sorry,” you say, quickly pulling your arms away and moving back to your side of the bed.
“It’s alright, just try to stay over there, okay?” he says.
“Okay,” you respond.